hello danielle.
i'm not going to hide the fact. i do miss the past. and there's alot of things that i want to tell you. i miss everything that happened last year. camwhoring session, study dates, shopping and many other miscellaneous stuffs. they are all etched in my mind deeply. sometimes, i really really wish that time would actually turn back and we could be as close as ever. last year was awesome, because there's you. i missed those times where we could talk about everything and not hide about anything. i missed those times where we study, talk, play, get wild, or anything else.
but i know it wouldn't be the same anymore.
we all changed, especially me. i don't like the me now. i really really dislike it. i'm lacking of confidence. and i guess it's all because i care too much about you. like what my mother told me. it's like.. starting of the year only and you've already got yourself alot of new friends (eileen, jiayan, etc) and i'm worried i'll be replaced. or maybe i already am. i really don't like it. i'm sorry okay.
i'm sorry for not being understanding enough, and the rest. i'm sorry for everything. i'm not a good friend, and i'm sure you'll find someone nicer than me as your friend. purely because i suck, and i don't deserve to have you as my friend because i always think of you negatively.
be happy alright. you deserve much more. memories we have will always be in my heart, don't have to worry.
and, i always tell you i dislike/hate you, it's not true. i'm just imagining it. i need reassurance. i always need them.
please do come recess with us, i don't want anymore misunderstandings. and i think you should have a talk with isabelle. i guess i often make her hate you more. it's my fault, i'm sorry.
goodbye, my 2010 best friend. i love you. be happy.
